huggin some floral carpet. basking in chill.

Love influence. I was talking with my roommate today and i thought that's what she said but i actually misheard her. It was just a slurring of words but when i heard it- it just dove into my skin. the miscommunication wasn't a mistake. i wrote it down and i just thought, "that is so true. love influence. sometimes that's the perfect way to explain a situation or a relationship." It's a love influence. my relationship with my dad is a love influence. the way a small group comes together in harmony and unity-love influence. that's one of the ways Jesus chose for me to live and communicate. through love influence. It can be hard to remember that when i get caught up in my social life but i end up sitting back and realizing- its out of LOVE for my Saviour that i live and act the way i do. He gave His love to me- i'm called to share my love influence with others. I have a feeling that will be a big key on campus this year.

i have officially moved into my dorm/cinderblock cell. all o my cutsie things are in place. i have this great collage of my photography of my family on my wall- peppered with paisley wall adhesives. colorful curtains, string lights, tons o pillows.
classes start on tuesday. in other words- my seventeen hours of music major classes,algebra, speech, BSM work, TOMS representative work, and who knows what the flip else starts in two days. i tend to whip out my planner and start overthinking everything: "ok- today i want to get this done on campus, this done off campus. i want to eat lunch with this person, adopt ten dogs, and solve world hunger" and of course i over plan my days because i'm trying to do it alone. my exceedingly wise and beautiful grandma sent me this verse that i will part with-

"Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves but our sufficiency is from God" 2 Corinthians 3:5. that goes along with another struggle i have- acknowledging Him instead of leaning on my own understanding. i love it when He continues to show me scripture regarding something that He's been trying to show me for quite some time. I am still in the process of learning myself and realizing that it takes me several several experiences to realize that the way i handled it was not of Him- even though it didn't crash and burn..
learning myself is an adventure. a worry free one because i know there is someone who already has that under control..has had it under control before my existence was something anyone contemplated.